being fat...

Being fat is kind of like being stuck in another persons body and in some ways literally. It's like you have all the fat, but none of the soul of this life leech and you are swallowed up in the middle. You are in control, you make the choices, but it makes them hard. The fat makes it hard to move, hard to feel good about yourself, hard to enjoy many thing you would enjoy if you could just shed this parasite. I am tired of sharing my life with fat. I want MY LIFE! I want it on my terms! I am going to change it and by no means is this thing going to leave me alone easily it's going to fight, but I am ready to fight back. Yesterday I spent a day with my family out and for the first time in a really long time I enjoyed myself completely and a lot of it was because I lost a few pound and I am not as tired,  or as sore, I lost part of the leech and I found joy. I am going to beat this thing. I am tired of being stuck inside someone else's body. I am tired of living life in another skin. If you are too, make a change, beat it with me!